It is obvious there are family, friends, and closeness with these people I have missed for the past 3 years in Sweden. Sometimes it baffles me the time has gone without really knowing it because I barely see my family or hear from them. When I first joined the navy in 2002, it was an exciting adventure and scary challenges awaited me in bootcamp. Then things settled down until I exited the navy in 2011. When I tell people I was in for 9 years, it makes them shake their heads and not believe I worked there so long!
However, I find it ironic they call military service “volunteering” since the definition of volunteer is to do something without seeking pay or financial compensation. I have a new job starting up for me this week and I have two other jobs keeping me busy while this one begins. I have sudden bursts of happiness and sadness at the prospect of succeeding or failing at my new summer job. I got a call from the department boss today, and he almost let me go because I had just woken up and did not know the answer to his question. It turns out later he asked me about scheduling an appointment and he said it so fast I could not understand. When I gathered a response he was literally standing by with the ultimatum. It gave me a bad taste and memory of what it was like having a job where people walk all over you without giving a shred of respect. I suppose if I want respect I will have to give it, and I am planning a way to get in touch with him in the future and have a five minute conversation about what exactly went on that morning when he called since I just had awakened.
Part of me wants to let this go, but another part wants me to confront the issue of “lack” of communication by taking the proactive step of initiating conversation and discussing what is expected and any issues with me not understanding him. I underwent three interviews with this person and each time he was very responsive and alert to my questions and answering them. He was very happy to call me in for the appointment to hire me, and for there to be an ultimatum right after being hired is only understandable if he explain what exactly is his thought process. I know this is a bit complicated, but I want to establish a communication line between him where I do not feel terrified the next time I talk to him I will feel threatened at being let go. I think it would be in both our interests if we have a discussion and try to establish some set rules or boundaries. I hate to feel I am starting my first summer job on the wrong foot, but I want to initiate this conversation maybe tomorrow after meeting my booked appointment. I am planning to keep it simple and maybe have a two minute conversation over the phone since he is probably busy or not in the office. I want him to know I am not afraid to communicate and will be focused on doing well.
— Justin —